Pain

It is simple, she says

Quell the darkness

Snuff the mind

And the feelings will shift

It is soon over, she says

Then you forget

And life carries on

Joyful

Painless

I stare

And shake my head

Disbelieving

It is all in your head, she says

The blackness

The pain of not belonging

Does that mean it is not real?

Being in my mind

Always screaming

Behind a smiling mask

Silently

Invisibly

Longing for understanding

It is only a feeling, she says

Not always true

Never really important

I laugh

And cry

A feeling can not be silenced

Or carelessly thrown away

However unwanted

Unjustified

Barely numbed

It envelops me

Drags me down

You are being difficult, she says

I glare

I am not the difficult one

Not the one with closed eyes

A closed mind

She refuses to see the darkness

Shuts out the screaming

Always helping

Wrongly

Egotistically

You are delusional, she says

I sigh

And turn

She will never understand

My pain